So back to the grief that accompanies title changes. I actually still have a hard time talking about this next one without crying. Even though this is totally right and exactly what God wants for us right now. It's the title of:
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"Homeschool Mom"
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That has been my title. For so many, many years. I've loved it and I've been so thankful to be that mom. So when God told me very clearly last fall to put Brayden in public school so that his extra needs could be met, and so that I could better juggle all of our littler ones at home (and court dates, and case worker appointments, and doctor appointments, and...) I grieved so hard.Â
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God is there in the grief, always. Just because we listen and obey doesn't mean we'll walk away without grief.
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Our public school experience so far for our kids has been fantastic, and the teachers and other professionals we work with have been amazing. Because all of our six littles are considered "at risk" we get to work with public school resources for all of them, from newborn on up. What a gift. A very necessary gift.
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ANYWAY. This email is getting long. So thank you for letting me share. And cry a little bit. Because God's ways are amazing, even if when they are hard.
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I shared here that we are only sort of homeschooling Malachi for now. We will listen to God's direction for the future of our school years with all of our kids. But the more I think about this, the more I really want to emphasize this truth: ALL PARENTS ARE HOMESCHOOL PARENTS. We must be teaching our kids at home -
all of the things that matter most to us.
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Because of this, I am still "Homeschool Mom." Maybe not as much in the traditional sense, and also, who cares? God is at work in the public school too, how about that? The more I do this hard life with all of these changes, the more I realize: We all have much more in common than we thought.Â
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No matter where our kids go to school, no matter our strong feelings about any topic, no matter, no matter, no matter. God loves all of us and is at work for our good. This. Is. Truth. And that is all that matters. Listen to Him. Walk with Him. Obey Him.
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