Bless Malachi today when he was heading out for his first soccer game of the year. I hugged him goodbye and shocked both of us by bursting into tears. I kinda laughed at myself through the tears because it seemed so absurd. He was like, "Mom?! What is it?!"
I blubbered to him about how I have 10 kids now (information he was already well aware of) and how my heart and time is now pulled in so many directions. I want to be in all the places for all my kids all at the same time, but I can't. So I cried. Because I'll be missing Malachi's game tonight.
He's so sweet. He gets it. Yes, he wants us there, but he knows he's loved and supported. He hugged me back and told me that it was ok, and that he'd probably play terrible anyway so I wouldn't be missing anything. Ha. He's good at turning tears to chuckles.
So many people say to me, "Laura, I don't know how you do it all."
Snort. I don't do it all because the "all" has become so much larger than it used to be. I need (want) to be three different places tonight at the same time, but I had to pick one. Matt had to pick another. And Malachi is at his game without parents tonight.
Do you know who WILL be at his game tonight? Other parents who love my kid. He has great friends with awesome parents and they will be screaming his name and cheering him on. (And texting me updates, woot.)
Meanwhile, our cat got ran over last night, Brayden twisted an ankle, and Baby Sissy is getting molars. I'm fine, it's fine, everything is fine.
Right now, babies are napping, awwwww. So I'm sitting with a cup of coffee and writing all of this to you, my community, and giggling at the glorious craziness God has lovingly brought to our lives. I'm marveling at how He provides. I don't do it all, BUT HE DOES. This truly is so cool to experience - seeing Him do so much through our inability to do it all.
How is God providing for you through the craziness you live through? Isn't He so good?!
